posted 16th September 2024
Life Stage Transitions from 40 to 50 years old
My past self would be amazed.
As I approach my 50th Birthday with a newfound enthusiasm for life I am taking time to reflect on the last decade and indeed the last half century of my life.
When I turned 40, I had successfully climbed the ladder of the business strategy and trading environment of high street fashion retail, I owned a 2-bedroom flat in a desirable part of London and externally it seemed that I was leading a successful life.
I wasn't happy.
As turned 40 I started to realise I wanted something different, something more authentic, but I wasn't sure what that 'different' looked like and if I took the leap to find out would I be brave enough to action it. To live it.
As time when on things started to unravel. My mental and physical health went on the decline. My memory that I was known for and proud of started to fail me. That 'different' life became more and more urgent. A necessity and not just a want or desire.
I left my job, and I sold my flat.
I left London and started a journey of self-reflection, self-awareness and self-discovery.
I was terrified, any leap into the unknown is frightening, I left what the western world defined as stability and stepped into uncertainty. At that point I did not know I was on a journey to prioritise wellness in all shapes and forms.
Peri menopause appeared, and no doubt plays a vital part in this journey, its symptoms gradually increasing in intensity until I realised the natural approach was fine as long as it's not harmful. Its impact on my mental and physical health and wellbeing could not be ignored and I started the journey of HRT. Now I am grateful I have it and the mental and physical fitness and clarity that comes with it.
I focused on my health, and I was diagnosed with treatment resistant cPTSD and chronic pain. I took the leap and decided to have Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy. It was a challenging but transformational and enlightening process.
HRT and Ketamine Assisted Therapy enabled and empowered me to build my life as I want to lead it, based on the holistic principles of wellness. The conscious choice to put all aspects of my mental, physical, social, environmental and financial health first.
Today, a few weeks away from my 50th birthday, I now partner others on their journey so they can enable and empower themselves to achieve any outcome or goal they desire, want or need to achieve.
As for the future? Time will tell, time to go with the flow.
My past self would be amazed.
